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[01 Aug 2008|12:31am] HAPPY NURSES DAY TO ALL BELOVED NURSES!!! I'M PROUD TO BE A NURSE!!! Deep within each heart There lies a magic spark That lights the fire of our imagination And since the dawn of man The strength of just "I can" Has brought together people of all nations There’s nothing ordinary In the living of each day There’s a special part Every one of us will play Feel the flame forever burn Teaching lessons we must learn To bring us closer to the power of the dream As the world gives us its best To stand apart from all the rest It is the power of the dream that brings us here Your mind will take you far The rest is just pure heart You’ll find your fate is all your own creation Every boy and girl As they come into this world They bring the gift of hope and inspiration Feel the flame forever burn Teaching lessons we must learn To bring us closer to the power of the dream The world unites in hope and peace We pray that it will always be It is the power of the dream that brings us here There’s so much strength in all of us Every woman child and man It’s the moment that you think you can’t You’ll discover that you can Feel the flame forever burn Teaching lessons we must learn To bring us closer to the power of the dream The world unites in hope and peace We pray that it will always be It is the power of the dream that brings us here Feel the flame forever burn Teaching lessons we must learn To bring us closer to the power of the dream The world unites in hope and peace We pray that it will always be It is the power of the dream that brings us The power of the dream The faith in things unseen The courage to embrace your fear No matter where you are To reach for your own star To realize the power of the dream To realize the power of the dream post comment

[29 Jul 2008|03:08pm]  Nurses day are round the corner and I can still remember on the 1st of August last year I was invited to Istanna to celebrate nurses day with all my fellow nurses. Recently many things happened between my group members and me. I just wants to be alone and to be with some other classmates whom can really motivate me to study hard and to score well for all my examinations and tests. I'm not being very unreasonable but I just thinks they don't even know how's the stress level like when you're a sponsered student. You must excel well in your studies and not only that, your attendance and behaviour in school have to be 95% in order for you not to compensate the hospital. Well perhaps, they are still very young and haven really saw the real work of a nurse yet. Nurses are angels in disguise. Yup that's true but however, we're also the kind of person who have to experience so many hardships and all the types of angers that are being vent on us. It's not as easy as anyone could thought. Not all can be a nurse as nurses are the chosen one from God to help serve and save lives. Not only that, we had to also deal with some nasty doctors or lazy doctors that we had to come across. Worst of all is when you have to attend to a collapse patient. As a staff nurse, you have to be smart and act fast because every minute and seconds counts the death of a patient. Some might think being able to assist in a resus is great. Well that's all craps and this kind can only be shown on the television itself. When it comes to the real resus, everything have to be fast and quick. No use panicking and landed up not doing anything for the patient. Every step and procedure that we does becomes our responsibility. It's not easy being a staff nurse neither is it easy being an enrolled nurse too. Staff nurse have more responsibilities as compared to enrolled nurses but however, enrolled nurses stress level can be quite stressful too as you are responsible in taking care of 12 or more patients ADLS. But however for staff nurses, we had to always be alert and to also make sure that you administer the right drug if not you will cause the death of the patient. One wrong move and that's it. I prefer the older batch of nurses where they are more studious and professionals. I wants to learn from them and to pass out as an outstanding staff nurse instead of a blurred staff nurse. Dear God, please give me the strength to carry on and to move on. I need my motivation back like what I had in the past. Please lead me to the way, the truth and the life. I'll always remembered what my staff nurse Aisha had said to me. "Eileen please do not feel left out or discourage as you're the oldest in class. Though some classmates do not get along well with you forget it. They can never imagine how tough life as a nurse is. Focus on your goal and soon you will reach your destination. You are granted with more experienced as compared to the others so therefore, work hard and strive hard towards your dreams and I believe you can do it." Well babe, thanks for your advice and I really appreciate it a lot. It really warms my heart when I gets to hear such heart-warming consoles that my colleagues had given me. God thanks for everything and I hope that you will bring back my motivation and my strength to move on and to study hard. See me soon as a Staff Nurse in SGH... post comment

Bye Bye Blog for a time being [22 Jul 2008|07:08am] I'll bid bye bye to this blog for a time being till after my exams which is on the 25th of July. After that, I'll be preparing for my mid year examinations. I'm going to study real hard in order to enter NUS or Uni of Sydney... So bye peeps for a time being... post comment

A Memorable Bookmark [09 Jul 2008|09:59pm] Recently while studying for my Anatomy and Physiology, I found this photo that was being slot in one of my textbook(As it is part of my bookmark) When I opened it up I was delighted and not only that, I do miss the great times we had at Sentosa. I remembered that was my very first time taking sky ride with this Gong. My favourite Gong and I miss her loads... Haha... Remember how I used to call you chocolate chips back in NUH ward 54 just because you had this mole somewhere around your face. Next time I'll take a more precise picture and circular it to let all of my audiences see that little cute chocolate chip on her face...  post comment

[09 Jul 2008|09:49pm] I enjoyed my polyclinic posting the most because I got to know new and great friends out there. Really like mixing with the rest of them especially my chemistry, Fari, Shah, Gloria and Yasmin...  post comment

[09 Jul 2008|09:37pm] People who are unable to motivate themselves must be content with mediocrity, no matter how impressive their other talents. post comment

[08 Jul 2008|09:34pm] Had a great time last week playing volleyball again with my friends at Sentosa. Anyway, 5 more weeks to my mid-year exams and I am going to mug till the end. Just gotten my SGH sponsership and I have to really put in a lot of effort in order to get good grades. I'm afraid that if I didn't do well I have to compensate back to the hospital and worst of all blacklisted. Nursing is a great job and I love this job a lot but when it comes to the academic part, I felt it's tough. I really hope to gain back my motivation and to work hard towards my goal as an emergency nurse. Dear God, thanks for everything that you had given me. Thanks for granting my 21st birthday wish and it is non other than my continuation with my studies. Dear God, right now I just hope that everything will goes out fine and I can be able to graduate out fast as a staff nurse in sgh. post comment

FED UP!!! [23 Jun 2008|09:04pm] I am sick. I am suffering from constipation and insomnia. It's not a good sign actually but however, I am literally too tense up with my projects and studies. Anyway, I had a disagreement with this stupid guy. I called him stupid because he doesn't have a brain or what so ever. I think his cranial area is hollow. Totally hollow. And this is how the arguement goes about. He called me yesterday telling me that he's bored so being the kind soul I decided to give up part of my time and listen to what he said. And came out that everything is a total CRAP!!! Just admit it if you're just biased against me. Stop beating round the bush because I hate such losers! You're just an insensitive creature who doesn't understand one's feeling. Because of this, I am starting to dislike PAYCO. You apparently side for Stephaine rather than me by putting in good words for her and as for me, you just apparently condemn me to the core. Well is this fair for me? I doubt so. I am not jealous of Stephaine or what and no matter what she will still always be one buddy but however, I felt that people like you doesn't deserve having a friend like Stephaine. You know something? These words of yours can destroy my friendship with Stephaine and I really hate losing such a good friend just because words like yours came upon us and tries to destroy it. You should know I am a paranoid and sensitive type and I bet everyone needs their sense of belonging and security. I doesn't wants to attend PAYCO practices is because I have my reasons to it. Firstly, I'm working and can you imagine having to work 6 days in a week barely hardly any rest except for just a day. I admit I neglected lots of my good friends around me due to my work and also my studies. You think I like doing this? No! And if I have the time, I would also love to spend time with my loved ones or my friends out there. But you apparently discriminate me and torn up my pride. How would you feel if I am starts to practice biases against you and your good friend. You will not definately like it. No use saying that you meant it as a joke because what was being said can't be erased. Another reason why I dislike PAYCO was because of the cello teacher Cai Lao Shu. He is also like you. Practice biases against his students. Throughout this period in PAYCO, I didn't really enjoyed myself as much as others could because Cai Lao Shu will always emphasis on his better players as compared to me. I felt a total loss out as I was the worst cellist among the others. I believe the role of a teacher is to help those weaker students and not to help those better ones. Even his students are following his footsteps and then to become quite selfish into teaching the others around them. I dare said this right now because what I had said was true and right. Can you ever imagine not being able to even tell others who was in PAYCO that I was in nursing? The feeling is terrible because the moment I tell others what's my course, they will either starts laughing at me or rather look down on me because nurses do dirty job. However, I'm glad that after all this years of sufferings, I finally found the shoot of my bonsai plant starting to bloom it's pink pretty flowers. I'm glad that I did not chose a wrong path into coming into nursing even though I had thoughts of becoming a doctor once. Now I got to do something that I like yet those ironic words of yours made me got really disappointed in you. So all these while I am like your puppet being made use of from the start. If I knew from the start that this would happened, I would have chose not to befriend you fearing that more complications will come upon me. Remember the Chee Yao thingy? You apparently got me into trouble and yet I still forgive you for what you had done. Anyway for Chee Yao, all I can said that he's a total junk. Lifeless person that I had ever met. Anyway, friends out there if you happened to read this entry this guy I am referring to is Ho Tsu Yang from Payco. I really can't believe all this while I am such an idiot and a fool to believe him. Please don't behave as though you're so mature because you haven really saw the other ugly part of this world. I have this guts to pinned this entry down because I feels that you're the one who utterly disappoint me all this while. And know something? I finally saw the true colours in you... post comment

Night Cycling [22 Jun 2008|03:14am] Yesterday was a great day for me. Had dinner with my favourite lecturers Mdm Phua and Mdm Lee at Swensen. Marcus, Gaya, Sahlawati and her daughter, Kelly and me was there and we chatted till we dropped dead. After that, we had earthquake ice-cream and it was soooo nice. After dinner, Kelly and me took a cab down to East Coast Park to meet Kah Mun and the rest for our night cycling. Our aim was to cycle from East Coast Park down to SGH. We started our journey at 11.30pm and came back to East Coast park at 4.30am as we were very exhausted by then and could not go on any further. It was thrilling but filled with sores and MUSCLE ACHES especially my buttocks, biceps and everywhere of my hands and legs joints. Anyway, it was an enjoyable outing though the pain was intolerable. I got a good news to share. SGH had accepted my sponsership and I'm glad. Finally, I am one step forward towards my dream to University of Sydney. I am going to mugged and I sweared I will. No matter how rough or tough this journey is going to be, I am going to stand hard on my feet and work hard to achieve what I wants in life and same goes to my relationship. I never had a fantastic relationship throughout my life. I always thought that I was a jink or something. Each time when I got into a relationship, it fails after a month or two. I'm just so afraid to face the consequences after my failure in my relationship. The feeling is terrible and honestly speaking,I am the kind of person who needs somemore to protect me and be there for me through my ups and downs. I do not go for perfection but what matters to me most importantly is the character of the opposite partner. Through these years, I did not really or seriously got into a stable relationship. All my relationship was a total thrash and I hate it. Each time when I fall out of love, my world becomes dull and lonely. I admit that I had friends that are always there for me but still, I believe everyone needs someone to be there for them and someone to care and love them too. Such a feeling can't be explain till you really found that special someone. Everything would be magical and it feels as though you're the luckiest person on earth to get that someone special. I do not believe in women independence. No matter how great, how powerful and how rich that woman was, still her life will be lonely and empty without any presence of love. Not love from your peers and families but the love between one particular person to the another. I believe that's how God had made us. Loving someone is not by looking at his or her appearance but how great her inner beauty would be. It's like a normal guy loving a mute lady despite her diabilities. And I can said such a thing had happened and I had also witnessed it with my own eyes. All of us have our needs just like how Maslow had categories our needs and belonging. Anyway, what I had posted today doesn't mean I had just broke off or whatsoever. I love to pen whatever I like and whatever comes to my mind. I still love my bf and it will always be unless he stop loving me one day. And I do hope that the one day would not ever come. I'm just happy being with him. A simple relationship yet a nice one. Thanks bf!   post comment

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